Tonight’s Disheartening Event requires some context. “So there’s this girl.” A good friend of mine whom I have known since my freshman year in high school, and probably one of the reasons I’m more socially capable than the stereotypical nerd. We’ve been talking on and off through that span of time, and I was sure I was ‘friend-zoned’ (hell, she’s been married and divorced in the time we’ve known each other, and I started as the naive quiet nerd, so I made the realization after I started caring) until this Spring Break, when we actually hit it off. I vocally nixed the idea of a long-distance-relationship (she in Amarillo and I in Lubbock), because my tendency toward apathy and “being two hours away from a hug” (my words to her) seemed to be too much of a hindrance to this greenhorn.

The main reason I’m in Amarillo right now is to provide attention to my parent’s cat for a day while they’re in England for a week and a half. However, I was so willing to drive here because I would be able to see this friend and put some of my over-thinking (I’m an Intellection, it’s what I do) into action. We approach the Disheartening Event. Unfortunately for me, during our catching-up conversation, she let me know that someone else had been more pro-active than I. Apparently damn chivalrous, too, by her telling. To put it directly, she got an actual boyfriend.

I left out a bit of the pre-context, but that’s the gist. I’m sure I’m over-thinking again, and I need to let this pass. But my face is still flushed from when she got here three hours ago, even though she left an hour ago. If you’ll excuse me, I’m going to cheer myself up.

Post scriptum. I wanted to add that we didn’t have a falling out; tonight’s overall plan of anime-watching still occured, just with a different undertone than anticipated.